Posts Tagged ‘Chronic Pain’

First of all let me say that I am not seeking sympathy by my blog today. I am seeking understanding, so more people can understand what it is like to live, and battle Chronic pain everyday. I have hereditary peripheral neuropathy, now complicated by Type II Diabetes. One of the issues I battle with is, I look fine, It is harder when people can’t see your disability.
Causes and descriptions of Neuropathy.

My wife and I were watching a program on Chronic Pain sufferers, during the program the question was asked of each individual, “Have you considered suicide?” this prompted my wife to ask me the suicide question, my answer was yes, I have thought about it, but know I do not consider it as an option. She started weeping and said “I never knew it was that bad for you.” I told her I am pretty good at hiding my pain, as I do not want to burden my family or others with it.

I watched my Mother go through it from grimacing in pain, crying, moaning when all she wanted to do was relax, all the while her condition was getting worse from not being able to drive, and finally before she passed away, not being able to walk. In addition to this taking every pain medication that was made available to her, and none of them improving her quality of life. I loved my Mom very dearly, and I miss her every day.

I myself made a personal decision not to take pain pills of any kind, I am not bragging about how well I manage it, but after watching my Mother, and My Father-In-Law (For a different health issue) take pain medications, it has made me make the decision not to take them.

For the most part I am pretty good at hiding my pain, yes sometimes I complain about it, but those are on the days when it is at the level of a strong 10, based on the 1 thru 10 numbering system, sometimes I should respond with it is at a 15, yes it does hurt that bad. I am never not in pain, my pain levels for the most part average around a 5, last night when my wife and I were talking it was at a 7. She asked my why I do not tell her how bad it is, I guess it is because I want her to be happy, and not burdened with my pain. As I write this blog today my pain is at a 5.

It is sometimes scary when I think about the future, the possibility of no longer being able to drive, losing my ability to walk, right now I do fairly well, with the exception of my balance issues, which are getting worse, which has forced me to use a cane when walking long distances.

So far most of the time, I do not take anything for pain, not even over the counter pain medications. I use mind over matter, and it works if you concentrate hard enough.

I have tried marijuana, and it really worked, for the first time in years my pain was completely gone, I had a feeling of euphoria, the reasons I have chosen not to continue to use it are #1 It’s still illegal in Utah, #2 Not really a fan of getting high. I do have a CBD Oil vape, that helps on the really bad pain days, but I do want to use it all the time. I do not want anything to be a crutch in my daily existence.

Due to my health issues, and a terrible job market for people over the age of 50, we lost most everything we worked for all of our lives, my career making a 6 digit income, our home, most of our possessions, we are on the road to recovery, but with what my wife makes and me living off of SSDI, it is a slow process.
That brings me to the discussion of legalizing Medical Marijuana, even though I may choose not to use it, it should be a right for anyone else to do so. In my personal opinion any politician, Doctor, and anyone in the medical profession who is against it, is being pressured by Big Pharmaceutical, with their kickbacks, and payouts, or they are taking the prescription mind altering pain meds, and don’t care. As far as it Medical Marijuana being a “Gateway” Drug, there is no proof of that, but there is proof that opioid painkillers are a “Gateway” to Heroin. Not to mention the high incidents of Opioid overdoses. We need to legalize Medical Marijuana.
Opioid addiction
I closing today, I just want to say thank you for your understanding, and life goes on!

As always Rusty Loves you, peace, love, and happiness!



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All these conditions cause Chronic Pain, with some of them the individual looks normal from the outside, but the constantly suffer with Chronic Pain:

• Crohn’s Disease
• Diabetic Peripheral Neuropathy (DPN)
• Leg Pain
• Loin Pain-Haematuria Syndrome
• Lupus
• Lyme Disease
• Neuropathic Pain
• Peripheral Neuropathy
• Low back pain
• Arthritis, especially osteoarthritis
• Headache
• Multiple sclerosis
• Fibromyalgia
• Shingles
• Nerve damage (neuropathy)

The list goes on and on, I myself suffer with severe Peripheral Neuropathy, and it causes many a sleepless night. To look at me I look fine, but it is starting to affect my gate when I walk, and someday I will no longer be able to drive. By choice I will not take pain pills, or Neurontin as it has too many side effects, (Anyone taking Neurontin, please beware and have your kidneys checked, my cousin is on Dialysis because of Neurontin) and I do not want to be a Zombie from the pain pills.

I do not recommend anyone with Chronic Pain to do what I am doing, most of the time it works for me, but there are times when I wish I had a pain pill to take. I currently rub White Flower Analgesic balm on my feet, it does help it is available at most Asian markets.

Just another note, a lot of individuals with Chronic Pain look and act normal, but the majority of us are in constant pain. We are not looking for pity, at least I am not. We are just asking you to understand how we feel, and there are times when Chronic Pain sufferers just can’t do things, or do not feel like doing things.

Plant seeds of happiness, hope, success, and love; it will all come back to you in abundance. This is the law of nature.
– Steve Maraboli

Chronic Pain is not failure
Chronic Pain is not a cry for attention
Chronic Pain is nor something you choose

Chronic Pain is……..
Something that happens
A Disability

“Chronic Pain is one of the most underestimated health care problems in the world today. We believe chronic pain is a disease in its own right.”
Professor Harald Brivik, W.H.O.

There are very many resources to choose from (just Google Chronic Pain), just please choose wisely before trying any medication, and please read the warnings.

I am sure there are many stories out there of people who also suffer with chronic Pain. Please feel free to post your comments about them!

As always Rusty Loves you and peace out!

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